when you were a preacher you were doing it to survive. you had too much to share and too little to receive. and when you were a preacher you were trying not to dive into the overwhelming pool of seeing. if I was there I could have been unhelpful. if I was there I could have been unkempt. but what lasts long is the livelaughloving, the bitterness recedes into a dull throb that you had on your mind all times when you were a preacher. when you were a preacher you would tell me what to do. you'd tell me what to think and what to feel too. but now I am a preacher and I've got nothing inside. better find a rotting corpse to feed on. if they were there they could have been unhelpful. if they were there they could have been unkempt. but what lasts long is the livelaughloving, the bitterness recedes into a dull throb that I got on my mind at all times now that I am a preacher.

I don't wanna be the biggest deal if you don't want me to. I don't wanna find a way to steal if you don't want me to. nothing untoward is on my mind if you don't want there to be. gotta be following the freaking blind, they don't want me to see. when you gonna come and get me? when you gonna pick me up for something I did? my conscience is guilty. I'm making appeal to the court now. when they're watching. I don't wanna come and floss to hard if you don't want me to. I'm still feeling guilty. I don't have much more of it in me. how good's a dead witness gonna be? I'm the witness to the prosecution.

I wasn't trying to be the smart boy. I wasn't trying to be Napoleon. I wasn't trying to be unwieldy. I'm just trying to watch my TV be on. I wasn't trying to be George Romero. I wasn't trying to jump in no whip (in no whip). I wasn't trying to swerve in a Lambo. I don't know how to drive, I think I'd just slip. I wasn't trying to mess up my sense of recall so let that be a lesson to you all. I wasn't trying to be a prospector (money money money). I wasn't trying to find all the gold (there it is). I wasn't trying to make you fess up (tell me now). I just want to know why you all feel so old (you're not old). I wasn't trying to draw no attention (look at that) to how dishevelled you have become (you look fucked up). you looking so worn out and depleted (Jesus Christ). what can be said bout you that hasn't been sung (I don't know)? I wasn't trying to make you the bad man. I wasn't trying to make you feel no worse (feel no worse). I wasn't trying to wheel and deal like I was Gavlan. just trying to put your ass in the hearse (nah, jokes).

swear to God man that they're trying to blow me up in my car like De Niro. they be on the same shit like they're all listening to the same guy, Ben Shapiro. and between the hours when I wake and I sleep I must ask, where does he go? daily movements on an NPC RNG tip. when the world was unformed and all bubbling away in a dish like vindaloo. when it all became obvious that I was not doing well, what did you do? you hoisted a bucket of molten lava and you poured it over my shoes. you're just lucky that I found those ones at the tip.

pavement gets kinda slippery in the morning, man that shit so true. street lights turn off when it's still dark, man that shit so true. the mf in front of me is walking so slowly, man that shit so true. I overtook them and they just caught up to me at the crossing, man that shit so true. well it comes to us like a spectral dust. I get kinda confused bout what I'm doing today, man that shit so true. walk into the party, oh I don't know anybody! man that shit so true. I thought I already told you the time and the place, man that shit so true. it'd be easier to go and plan a trip to outer space, man that shit so true. feel contagious feel like I'm a magus. feel peculiar feel like Amamelia. if something has come into your mind and it feels like something that everyone understands say it out loud anyway and they will say it's so true.

trying to come up with a catechism that won't turn into an anachronism. walking around with a sarsaparilla. walking around. walking around on the corner block. walking around with a quarter pocketful. walking around in the cul-de-sac. walking around. Smiley said this shit go over top. trying to come up with it off the top. what the fuck up with it. what the fuck up with you dude? what am I gonna do? walking around with my headphones, that is my trusty tool. I'm thrashing 56 Nights. I'm thrashing Dirty Sprite 2. hanging out with the dude. hanging out, what it do? I won't tell you what I think of you. what do you think of me? trying to give out a wedding ring surreptitiously. I'm on my espionage duty, that don't come for free. trying to hit em with my poison dart. they won't even notice me. I'm such a obvious catch. I'm pulling in moderate cash. I'm pulling in moderate thinkers, giving em moderate laughs.

everybody's trying to catch a vibe when they need to catch a song, ain't that right. but you know the only band that would work for me is that swingin' Moranbong, ain't that right. Stevie was so right when he said Basie, Miller, Satchmo and Duke is where it's at. ain't that right. if I can do anything for you then you can tell it to me straight, but there's a lot of people out there just wanna be clouding up my space. stop messing me around. I know I don't give too many hints like my face is made of clay, ain't that right. but you're gonna be looking at the same man from now until doomsday, ain't that right. metaphorically speaking I don't seem to be perceived as human by these guys. ain't that right. I don't necessarily need you to see that I understand what's up but if you hit that stupid strobe light you'll never see me again in this club. stop messing me around. when the fog descends upon the mountainside you can be sure of that. and if you all continue to act like I'm all good inside I will be fighting back. I'm on that 9 to 5 to 9 every day and night and day, ain't that right. so mf if you're looking at my mask you're gonna catch this toner spray, ain't that right. every time I get in shape somebody sympathy baiting bout their journey. I already did that. and you know that's right. why you trying to snatch my ushanka? why you grabbing my coattails? why you trying to steal my cufflinks? why do you do so many rails? I'm trying to shower my love upon you but you're trying to make it turn to hail. you're trying to piece it together like Meccano but you made my train set derail. stop messing me around.

skip this shit. come on mf skip this shit. I double dog dare your stupid ass. I triple dog dare you to take three Berners for a walk without tripping. who's that? who's that? God damn it I can't take this. would be easier if I was faceless. would be easier if you called back on FaceTime. jokes, I don't have an iPhone. take my word for it. what I'm saying, there's a word for it. it's bullshit. God damn it just skip this. take the message and encrypt it. I'm feeling way too lifted, I don't want to skip this shit. I made it so well produced. I did it so well they thought I did it wrong. I want to skip every track. please just let me hear a different song. police on my block. what the fuck? can't take this. no more than I can take a break. no more than I can take a chill pill. what I need that for? I'm chill as fuck! nothing to see here. certainly nothing to hear here. especially if you skip this shit. I think everybody needs to leave the room. think everybody needs to leave the womb. think you're gonna catch drive listening to hans? fuck it. I'll spill out all of my undeveloped anxieties. I don't think the top dogs at the office would hire me. everyone is just listening to Siamese Dream and Souvlaki. you all sound the same. too many phasers, I been hearing this shit for days. throwing darts at the spinning wheel in the rave. I don't care about white house, we do not live in D.C. young people got too many TVs. they trying to CC me into the dealer's email thread. all of you are on crack. all of you have had your brains dipped in boiling Ribena. I thought I was harsh but I should have been meaner. I can see through the fog. these people think that I'm green, I've got ten years experience. I'm fuckin serious. all of you are out fishing for marlin, you should be out looking at starlings. all dis hard times I went through, it's putting a toll on me.

hard turns, stop signs, red jacket shirt. do you ever feel like Mr. Burns? it's all I can do to keep myself from becoming too smart. industry of love, you can't even drop a single gold bar. what's the use of dirt that's not in a mound? but you said a zillion, that's not an amount. when I'm in the sea, in the sky, all the parishioners come out to dine. they think I don't have eyes. they think that I can't see. I've already untied. I don't have to get it every time. so I never see you coming, never teach you pardon, never be the warden, never be game over. I don't have a persecution complex, I find it very simple. everyone on earth is trying to exile me because the code is sinful. work it out.

I was steaming mad at you but I wasn't gonna stop you from doing what you wanted to. you gave me your personal credentials so there's no way I could be resentful. how could I know what you had in store for me? I never knew someone could go that far. it's good to know that I can still be shocked. when I picked up the implication that you would be leaving the nation I threw my arms up and say "what did I expect?" so now you're going off to greener pastures but you're gonna miss how much I made you laugh baby. you know I'm good enough. the walks of life are plenty, just take a stroll. if you keep on sprinting it's gonna take a toll now baby. you know I'm good enough. I was screaming down the phone. I wonder how much you're gonna give me back the time I loaned. I don't have the patience for search and rescue for the object of my affection. at least I have the decency to clean up as I go. if you don't want me I don't want any of you either. you can't believe it? I can't believe it either baby. you know I'm good enough. it's an ocean out there and I am a great white shark. I'm a deer in your headlights, you better brake right fast now baby. you know I'm good enough. bridge. I wasn't trying to be funny when I said that but I was running when I read that it would be the last time I say goodnight. I just want a day that you'll see me through and sooner than one that's three weeks due. what? mind my Ps and Qs? you the type to piss right on my shoes! you know this and I know it now. I get up early to paint myself like a clown. I had a change in my perspective when I saw your prime directive. now how can I take a word you say for what it is? I may not know all of the people that you know but I really feel I am above these shows now baby. you know I'm good enough. just because I look at people with a blank eyed stare doesn't mean that I don't have no feelings right down here now baby, you know I'm good enough. and in these communities you know there's something not quite right but it doesn't mean that I'm trying to start a hellcat fight now baby you know I'm good enough. and if you give me a trial run I promise I won't mess things up but I can be vengeful if you start to test me. come on baby. you know I'm good enough.

when the moon is up, now that there is some shit. I heard it affects the tides. but thinking bout gravity for too long freaks me out. it's not even one of the most strong forces in the universe. supposedly weak force is stronger than strong force. maybe I didn't read that right. goes to show what I know about the moon.

I feel like Tintin in Tibet when the yeti come and grab me. if they don't accept my application now they'll never have been. if they shun him on the streets and say that he's a dirty has-been. if you're too scared of hitting currents you'll be no good at rafting. the symphony is in my face and skull. it's times like these I wish I left my school. cause they don't seem to have a compass in my flight. and they seem to have a correlation every other time. got my feelings trickling down like Reagan's economics. but I all I care about is don't interrupt me playing sonic. bring along your favourite jester and he'll do the parlour tricks. doesn't it mean anything to you that you're making him sick? fall breaks and back to winter. I got that woodpecker syndrome. I found my body outside.

when we talked tonight we were doing so well together. but now you're not in my sight I will make my ultimatum. was I ever in your scope? sniper me down from the hilltop. and if there was a scene for me please let me audition again. if it would please the court of your dimension how much would it be on your conscience for me to mention? no completeness is my more in my eyes. never seen that before. please don't go. gonna make my ultimatum to you. what it do?